September 2010
iwasaheavyhearttocarry. mybelovedwasweigheddown. myarmsaroundhisneck. myfingerslacedtocrown. iwasaheavyhearttocarry. myfeetdeaggedacrosstheground. andhetookmetotheriver. whereheslowlyletmedrown. mylovehasconcretefeet. mylovesanironball. wrappedaroundyourankles. overthewaterfall. andisitworththewait. allthiskillingme. areyoustrongenoughtostand. protectingbothyourheartandmine. whoisthebetrayer....
&i think wed both agree, that weve run this...
Brace myself for goodbye, because its all ive ever known. (a flight risk, with a fear of fallin.. wondering why we bother with love if it never lasts)
Bon iver & candles seems to fix the days gone wrong, to a certain extent. wrapped up in endless amounts of blankets and pillows to fill me inside and out till i warm myself. i wish i was more selfish so i could sprawl myself out needless of anything or anyone. no need for soft music and lights and warmth. you would think that being on my own for 23 years would make me completely careless of...
